Only that I'm beginning to distrust my comic powers. I think they have grown so much that complete strangers giggle when they see me. Maybe I should clarify that it is complete, strange girls. Strange not in that they have two heads or extremely long necks, or three breasts instead of two (wow, it might be great to have a girl with three breasts so you can't fail to get what to suckle when the baby is busy with the other two) but strange in that these are girls I've never seen before and the moment they see me, I hear them giggle.
I'm in Nepal, in a small town called Dhangadi in the far west. I'm probably the only black person these people I've ever seen. Even as I write this, I can still hear their deep sighs on seeing me, they do not hide their utter astonishment, their mouths form into 'o's and they let out deep breaths while making a certain 'oooooh' sound that tells me they are seeing a Martian. And immediately following this, they giggle, or laugh out loud. Only girls and women do this. The men simply stare as though I was a monkey who started talking (one girl calls me Monkey, and I think if I was a Nigger from Harlem I might have been very offended, but I hope to get into her pants one day so I smile whenever she says this)
At first I thought they laugh because they peeked into my soul and saw the comic muse. But I have come to believe they giggle because I excite something sexual in them. I'm much taller than anything they have ever seen, and probably they think that I have a really long dick :)) but they will be very disappointed when they find out mine is only two inches long - so disproportionate to my height that I have wanted to commit suicide over it :(
Well, I started out as a horror writer, and for many years I believed that was my niche. Then one day I wrote this screenplay that I thought would be the next The Ring, or maybe The Texas Chainsaw Massacre, but the people I gave it to read told me, 'Oh no Dilman. This is not a horror. This is a romantic comedy.'
I almost gave up writing. Why would they refer to my script, with all its blood and gore and demons as a romantic comedy? Perverts! But that is probably the time that it started to dawn on me that I'm wasting time chasing dark dreams.
And I switched niches.
I wish I could also switch fate and turn myself into a peasant, or a teacher, or have some other regular job rather than this curse that makes me want to write and like that guy in Steven King's Misery, I just can't stop writing or else the pig will eat me up :(
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